
Loosely translated: "I want to sing about Jesus."
Candace has been coming to church with us for a lot of
weeks months (wow) now, and she really loves it. I started by putting her in the nursery while we attended the service, but when I came back to pick her up, she was standing in the same spot I left her in (sucking her thumb with her bunny). Don't get me wrong, I do not think nursery is bad...I think it's a WONDERFUL ministry. With Candace, though, she has abandonment issues, so it's difficult for her to socialize with unfamiliar people/kids because she's obsessing about whether or not I'm coming back for her. I decided a while back to try and keep her in the service with us until she feels more comfortable with the process as a whole (or gets old enough to be disruptive to those around us).
Being in the service has been amazing for her, I think. She absolutely loves standing and trying to sing the songs. She also has a crush on Brian (
Briwahn), which helps. Lately, she's been really interested in singing outside of church. Her favorite is "Christ the Solid Rock." I know, right?
Last night, I was trying to teach her a song ("Stand Up, Stand Up for Jesus"), but I couldn't remember the words. Dave looked it up on
iTunes and she was immediately captivated by the melody line. She looked at me, held up her hand, and said, "
Jeesa?" I almost lost it, but was able to explain what putting your hand in the air means when you sing to "
Jeesa." She eventually went to sit on Dave's lap (that was a big step with me still in the room) to look at the computer and sing.
Dave came across a video from the
India Children's Choir and played it for her. The choir came to our church a few weeks back and she loved it. At one point, they perform a slower song with the lyrics, "the name of the Lord is a beautiful sound." During that song, Candace closed her eyes, and lifted her hands and looked like she was singing it. It was a crazy moment. My mind was flooded with thoughts of her listening to horrible gangster rap music and that if she wasn't with us, she wouldn't be learning these "
Jeesa" songs. I felt some comfort thinking that, when she does go back with her mom, she will have these words hidden in her heart. It's incredible what a 2 year old can pick up.
Right before bed, I started a little tradition called "Thank you
Jeesa." Basically, I say "thank you Jesus for ______," and she repeats me and then adds some of her own (Rachel's cat,
Tycho topped her list last night). It was a nice way to end the day (for all three of us).